If you’re still alive, it isn’t too late to repent of your wicked ways and follow Christ. Many people think they can’t be forgiven because they’ve done such horrible things. The good news is that Christ will NEVER turn away ANYBODY who begs his forgiveness.
Believe it or not, some of the worst people in history have been forgiven. Even the Bible shows a long list of rogues who put their trust in the Lord.
Moses was a murderer. He killed an Egyptian task master for violently beating a Hebrew slave. He went from being an adopted prince to a fugitive, then he became the deliverer of the Israelites.
King David raped Bathsheba and arranged for her husband to be killed in battle. David abused his power as king but because he tearfully repented, the Lord forgave him. The son born to Bathsheba died but the king realized that he would go to be with him someday in heaven.
I could list others, such as a murderous religious fanatic named Saul who later became Paul the apostle, but this post would become far too long. Suffice it to say that God is exceptionally patient and desires that nobody go to hell. Instead, he has magnanimously allowed us to choose our eternal destination.
Though I repented and gave my life over to Christ in 1969, Nobody mentored me. After fifteen years in a cult and during nine years of rejecting God, he providentially led me to the truth. Please contact mebout the memoir I wrote called How I Was Razed.